::mindless blabber::

i never realised ppl do read my blog. so when i got an email from a total stranger who asked abt my well being and asked why i had not been updating my blog. well i have been totally caught up with work and by the time i get home off work, my brain is too dead to think and write anything. So i decided maybe i can blog from work, especially when it was not too busy.

thanks anucia for your concern and thanks for bookmarking me.

i had been busy for the past two weeks towards the end of july with work since the mgmt decided to implement a new schedule pattern. need to totally change my schedule as well. since my fren, khoo has left the company for a better place and my fren krishu with a totally different time schedule, i had to find new means to get to work. so what i did i do? bought a bike and started to ride the bicyle to work. after 2 days of riding on the bike, i couldnt feel my legs for the past few days. the thighs hurt, the back hurts, the shoulder hurts and the chest hurts as well. everything freaky hurts..

when i lay down to sleep at night, it was relief. until i woke up late that day and had to forgo my plans to ride the bike to work for that day. but i was determined to make it work so i decided to go ahead with my plans of riding the bike to work. so far made lots of progress, my butt no longer hurts that much, back is ok, and my thighs got stronger. so one step at a time, next month i am gonna enrol in a nearby gym and work on weights.

sometimes having some things lacking makes u think out of the box and make do with things in another way around. no one actually believed that i did really rode the bike to work the whole week..i firmly believe that things eventually would work out the way i want it to be one way or the other. never know where i got this perseverance in me to not quit and never giving up things easily. that is why it makes things in life difficult for me becoz i am so damn stubborn and i never said anything cannot be done. i also noticed that my siblings do not share this trait with me, my brother usually just gives in to anything that comes his way and he will make do with it. my sister is even worse, she doesnt even know what she wants… hahahah

sometimes i wonder how things would be if i wasnt that stubborn and hard headed. maybe i would have succumbed to having a mediocre life and not as difficult and colorful as what it is now. maybe i would have been happier and more contented with life than being a miserable, obsessive complusive person and a perfectionist in my own way. maybe i wont even make it this far and even consider finishing my degree or even take the chance at a job in a far far place away from home. or i could be more miserable than what i am now and may not even live to see my 30s.

with riding the bike, it made me more calm some how and it allows my brain to unwind from hard day at work and made me think about things. yes yes yes ppl always asked me not to think too much abt things but i just cant help it. life is like riding a bike, the bike may fit you and it might not but u can make do with as long as it keeps you moving from one place to another. riding bike is also not always smooth and could be really bumpy and you could fall sometimes. but still you are able to stand up again and ride the bike again. it is a lot like how we go thru life. some ppl’s life is smooth and problem free and some like mine, bumpy and tends to have many falls but eventually you will get to your destination bruised and tired. Bruises may heal and tiredness could be cured but then never stop riding.

do not know what got into me being all so philosophical all of the sudden.. maybe its the “Ride the Bike” philosophy…