lack of life…
despite having made friends online and also staying by my own with lots of freedom, i had been made a slave to work. everyday it is the same damn thing : work, eat, sleep, work, eat, sleep… wanting to have a life beside working, decided to join a gym. so now the sequence goes like this : work, exercise, eat, sleep…
from what ppl may think: they think that since i am all on my own now. my life would be a real socialite delight. but unfortunately it is not what many would think it would be. even back in KL , when i was still attached with HSBC, my life was also work, gym, eat and sleep.. come think of it, eventhough i have lots of friends, i do not normally hang with them. maybe as time goes by when we get older, our priorities in life changed. no doubt, my friends are all the world to me but so is my job. it is a matter of the chicken and egg problem. if i do not have a job that pays well, i wont be able to hang out with my friends without worrying abt who is gonna be paying the rent and bills.
despite having no life in my real life, i have made many friends online. unfortunately in this new virtual world, no one is like what they may seem to project/potrayed. some may be just creative projection and persona that one may take up when they go online to hide under a mask of inferiority. if you are fortunate enough, u may get to know good ppl and end up being long life friends. if you are in bad luck, you might end up talking to some sex maniac who cant stop talking about sex all the time. i mean i do talk abt sex but then not all the time becoz life is not all about sex. i also hate when some guys think that by telling me they had sex with so and so and how good it was and how great they are in bed. puhleasssseee lar. that is so degrading for his own good.
despite all these bad apples online, i did managed to get to know some peeps online who are really funny, caring and had been there for me at times when i am down. special thanks to Najib, James, Sean and Remy and these are some of the good guys i met online. some i met personally and some i have yet to met them. yes yes admitly, most of my online friends are guys. maybe there are too many lonely guys out there. maybe there are too many lonely, desperate, sex maniac ones as well. maybe it is one’s need to fill the void in their life. that is why the internet is such a life changing tool. you may be a no body in the real world but you may be a popular guy online where everyone seeks your advice or values your views.
having said that, if there were no internet, i think like would be really boring. and also not many free things can be obtained like mp3s, pirated softwares, movies and stuff like that. ppl who are got rich milking the IT cow would not be rich either. ppl would not have a place where they could be someone else and not get caught by the authorities.
now back to me venting out on having lack of life lately. this week was particularly tough, i was really tired and also got sick. am currently typing this blog entry with a stuffed nose and sore throat. throat feels like hot lava is burning underneath and nose is just completely blocked off. but not everything is bad, i finally got my car after riding on my bike for almost one month. legs are definately stronger but too muscled looking. need to go back to swimming to trim those muscled looking legs… despite having a car i didnt feel like goin anywhere or just maybe becoz i am down with a flu that is why it is dangerous to drive when you are on flu and sore throat medication.
anyway i am looking forward to goin back to KL on the 14th for my graduation convocation (at last!) it had seemed very long but then despite the fact that it is only another 3 months to go before year 2006 would just pass me by. time really flies without us knowing it. and before i even noticed my birthday is just two months away. another year older and my first year of celebrating my birthday without my ex. it would be tough espcially when my birthday falls on a monday! craps….
anyway more updates for this week…i have a lot in my mind lately…
