weekend? finally…
its thursday now and i am so looking forward to friday… its the weekend… so looking forward for some good old beauty sleep. i mean i do sleep on normal days but then most of the time i would be waking up every hour to check on my watch and hopefully i dun oversleep. that is the perk of working off shift hours. this entire month my work hours are from 4am till 1pm.. it is only on the weekend that i get a good 8 hours of solid undisturbed sleep. i know its bad for my health but i am so used to it. my mom said i am gonna look like 40 by the time i turned 30 but most ppl wont believe my age when they know my real age. they always thought i was younger.
most ppl like my work colleagues all thought i was this blur just out of college graduate who do not know anything abt working life. little that there know i have been working since i was 17. and little that they know i work in various kind of industry and encountered numerous different ppl. why do i give such 1st impression to other ppl? hmm maybe its that blur and innocent look that i have.. wahahahaha btw i can be evil looking if i want. i can potray many kinds of feelings and looks. i am a good actress and i have pretended to just get things to go my way.. like when i was to attend a job interview, i told my supervisor that my grandpa was in hospital (but my grandpa passed away eons ago) i fake anxiety and sadness… good huh??
certain point in our life we have to play pretend, we just have to.. there are too many fake ppl out there and there are ppl who would bully u with their great acting skills and then climb over your head if you are not careful. i am a very skeptic kind of person and paranoid sometimes. i am skeptic when i met someone who everyone sing high praises abt and also when ppl mentioned that they are this and this good. i mean someone who is really good at something wont sing their own praises… they just keep quiet and make sure only the relevant ppl hear these praises. that is what i would do..
