::mindless blabber::

sometimes change is unavoidable. some changes are due to demands, need and just becoz someone needs something else. yes i have been MIA for quite sometime here but it is becoz i just made the decision to quit my job in penang and come back to KL for another job. no doubt the job scope would be similar and the hours are different (UK shift hours for the job in KL) but i think it is time for me to leave penang.

not that i do not like the job in penang but then i have started not to look forward coming to work everyday. sometimes it is a sign to yourself that you are not enjoying the job. i enjoyed the job at first. during the 1st 3 months on the job but after that it just got more and more worse. plus the life style in penang is not in sync with the my work life style. at work, it is stressful and up tight but then the penang lifestyle is easy and slow. sometimes it does make me feel lazy and not want to go to work.

but when i was back in KL, everything was fast paced, the job, the lifestyle and you have to have the stamina to keep up with everything. it is best that i go back to that lifestyle else if i get too relaxed, i would never want to move on and or move up in my life. i guess looking at some ppl in my team, some of them have been on the job for a couple of years and doing the same thing every day. they have not gotten anywhere in their career or they just simply are too relaxed in their current role. looking at that, it would be impossible for me to see myself on the same job and on the same role for more than 1-2 years time. i would want to either move up or move to different role within that time. but looking at the lifestyle and also the way things are done in the company, it would be impossible for me to move upwards in the company if i do not put in at least a few years time on a certain role.

that is why i made the decision to move to another company and hopefully that i could do better there. speaking of moving back to KL, i realised that there is so many things that i got here… i gotten really comfortable here and bought many things in penang. now i am thinking how on earth am i gonna move all these things back??? so i be moving back after chinese new year as my new job would be starting on the 1st of march.

when i gave my resignation letter on tuesday, i actually felt really relieved and that this is the a good decision. i cant tell whether it would be the right decision but i know i made a good decision for myself. i cant predict the future so i guess for now i just have to make do with what i have.

also moving back to kl doesnt mean that i am moving back with my parents. i was actually surprised to find out that my dad was really ok if i were to live on my own back in kl. he told me that it would be better as he find that maybe if i had my own life outside it would make the relationship between me and my parents better. i guess it does. as far as i know, i want to make things easier for my parents. i do not really mind what they think of me but what as long as i do my best to help them.

anyway will post again tomorrow (i promise) coz i wont be doin anything tmrw as it would be singles most dreaded day : Valentine’s Day… humbug… yuck..

yes yes i know i know i was supposed to update my blog but then i got side tracked wih my busy schedule at work with training and all.. it put me into a writer’s block and sort of a mental block at the moment. anyway promise is a promise and after numerous reminder from various people (you guys know who u are)

anyhow this would be the reader’s digest version of my 3 weeks in penang so far and its gonna be the longest post ever!!!!

1st week…

the first week was fairly interesting. got to know some interesting ppl ie new hires like myself. the first impression when i got into the premises of dell is that how much it resembles the cubicles in the comic dilbert. i was of course thinking silently in my brain that there would be characters like in the comic dilbert in my work place as well.. hmmm wonder who would be dog-bert and who would be the stupid boss…hahahah… anyway just a bit of sleaze and details on the new hires like myself on the 1st week.

i sat next to this indian girl on the front row and her name is prema and she is also from PUCHONG!! at last someone from my own turf… hahahah anyway she was from sitiawan (small town in perak i think, if not then that explains why i nearly failed my geography in school, hahahah) but then i dun remember who sat next to prema.. OMG my memory is failing me… arghhh…. (being melodramatic here) anyway the others are jennifer (actually from sarawak but worked in KL, nice gal, also known as the FFK queen), yean ming (shy and soft spoken girl from penang who worked in KL as well, i can hardly hear her when she speaks), say soon (funny name, his face blushes everytime when u talk to him and he looks like a thermometer, hahaha, kinda cute but a bit soft), chua (shy and soft spoken fella previously worked in NEC b4), soma (nice indian girl from penang, quick and witty), krishu (sitiawan boy who is blur all the time and runs like a sissy, hahahaah, and being bullied by me, MUAHAHAHA), justin #1 (formerly working in Intel, cute young boy [too young for me.. sob sob…] with small squiny eyes), justin #2 (worked with egenting, big fella and he reminds me of chewbacca at first but now nicknamed as Jason [friday the 13th character killer] by krishu and now the name sticks with him, smoke faggot ciggies, hahahah), faizol (alor setar boy, young as well, soft spoken and always very quiet), firdous (melaka fella very tall, his head blocked the projecter shots all the time, deep voice…), suet yan (chinese gal formerly from intel, young and lots of questions…), nioh (also same gang with justin #1 and suet yan from intel as well, soft spoken and quiet and always together with suet yan… hmmm anything btw them ah?? oh i so kepoh) hmmm did i miss anyone else… hehehe of course i didnt forget one person…. hahahah another interesting fella is khoo (penang guy who cant swim, smokes hand rolled ciggies, very nice to me, boisterous and a bit wacko)

so that is about all the ppl who is newly hired on that week with me. first week was kindof great coz we got to know abt dell’s product and get to actually tear apart some dell PCs and notebooks… i never actually tear down a notebook be4 so it was really exciting… khoo mentioned that i looked like a wide eyed kid in a candy store when i was tearing down the unit… hahahah right khoo????

well despite all this excitement, i was not getting used to something in penang yet.. everytime after i eat, i had stomach ache… most probably something to do with the water and food here and my tummy is aching for food and water from KL and decided to pull a rebel with a cause with my system. no appetite and diarrhea.. how abt that for my first week…

found out some interesting facts about penang and the people here.. first when a chinese penangian see another chinese they automatically speaks to u in hokkien… got that a few times when i ask for directions or buy some stuff. i gave them that confused look and try telling them in cantonese that i dun understand hokkien and they dun understand cantonese… hahahah case of a duck talking to a chicken.. most penang ppl i met so far cant swim.. what a sad fact and the fact that they have beaches all around and they dun swim… what if a tsunami happens to engulfed the entire island?? everyone sure to be drowned… vowed to teach every single penang ppl how to swim… at least enough for them to save their own ass.. next is that penang drivers are the most craziest ppl on the road. they absolutely do not have any manners and i wonder how they ever got their license. and i thought that KL drivers are bad but penang drivers are ever worse. they do not put signal lights. they simply cut queues and jump lanes without any indication. they honked ppl like crazy and they have no regard for other drivers… OMG!!!

so that was a summary of my 1st week.

2nd week…

the 2nd week was kindof stressed a bit since we would be having an assessment on wed after being training by william (and yes his full name is william hong and not in any way related to william hung, hahahah i had to take a 2nd look at his badge just to make sure) it was nerve wrecking especially when we had to wait for 1 hour for him to annouce whtr we got thru the test or not… well it was good to say that everyone passed and made it to the next stage.

after which some of us decided to celebrate and what better way than to go clubbing on a wed nite… we (justin, me and khoo, well the rest decided to FFK us) went to this place called flix at a place called e-gate (just next to the new TESCO). at first glance at 9.30pm the place was dead not a single soul at sight… ZZZZZ…. the nice manager or someone called michael convinced us that the chicks would be arriving soon as the night is still early… so ok we decided to stay and see how things go. music was go ranging from latest pop to nice r n b stuff… 3 of us were like drinking and smoking like there isnt tomorrow… by 11.30pm the chicks were arriving… heheh pardon me but i am not a lesbian.. hahahah well sad to say no cute or good looking guys for me to wash my eyes with and thus urs truly had to look at hot chicks instead.. the club even had dancing girls on the podium.. really cute and hot chicks… for once i really wished i was a guy…

anyway with the right amount of booze, girls and great music, we were having a ball of a time.. well until about 2am, when we decided to just leave, the police decided to pay us a visit… OMG!!!! this is my very FIRST TIME BEING IN A POLICE RAID.. i have been clubbing for so freaky long and never once got into a police raid and now being in penang to work 4 the first time, went clubbing after so long and drank booze after so long and now the police decided to spoil the party… bummer.. lucky me huh???

anyway the policewoman gave me a container to pee in and to check for drug… never knew that drug checks are so easy and high tech nowadays.. the container has markers in to indicate whtr u have been taking drugs or not. luckily no girls were caught with drugs and only two guys were caught (most probably weed or something) so was back home by 3am and slept… and bummer had a class at 9am… 3 of us (khoo, me and justin) had red eyes and had this unsettling mannerism. me and justin was half dead for the whole day and khoo surprisingly was so bloody hyper… told u that he was a total wacko…hahahah

and that was not the end, since it would be a long weekend so we decided to pay flix another visit on friday before some of us decides to go back to our respective hometown. khoo brought his gf along, say soon, justin, me, krishu and his frens (which i forgot their names, sorry…) this time it was really great since we have a bigger group. from khoo and justin’s attempt to teach say soon how to dance (boy that guy really cant dance and no rythm) and me snogging justin (with booze everyone looks snoggable), it was really great.. until at exactly at 2am again!!!! this fella (some gangster from somewhere) asked the club to shut their operation and to chase everyone out of the club.. stupid ass… anyway it was really party popper and it happened again… lucky us again… should go and buy a lottery and we could have struck! anyhow we all decided to yam char while justin drowned himself with food becoz of the big disappointment… so that was our nite..

the very next day at 8.30am i took the bus to KL… and after 6 gruelling hours of sitting at the back of the bus (should have checked the seat number next time) i finally arrived in KL and u know what my lovely KL was crying for my return… hahahah no lar raining in KL… went to low yatt to buy some stuffs (mp3 player, webcam and a network cable) checked out prices of some stuff which i am eyeing to buy with my next pay check (external hard disk :120GB, sony errison W800i phone) anyone willing to sponsor me are also welcome.. heheheh

decided to take a cab home coz it was raining and bummer no taxis.. had to settle to take a bus instead. reach home at about 6pm.. took a nice long hot shower (no hot water in penang) watch some astro (no astro in penang as well… sob … sob no chinese series at nite) called my dearest SA for dinner only to be informed my dad that the car is out of batteries.. damn it… wanting to me SA so i drove the car after persuading some guys near my house to push the car for it to start.. went for dinner and then SA had to push the car all by himself.. poor dear its ok dear at least the mp3 player made up for it right???

the very next day, followed my parents to the morning market in PJ and gave some money to my dad and mom since i have gotten my paycheck.. parents decided to give me long lecture on not being frugal with my money and not to spend too much on my plastic (well plastic cant work coz the stupid card is spoilt and cant be swiped) then at 1pm i went to godmother’s salon to had my hair rebonded… had a really nice long chat with coz i have not seen her for ages.. my hair turned out so nice but i cant wash my hair for at least 3 days… ARGHHH wat ??? for a person who washes her hair every day that is like a dead sentence for me. i would really die…(ok ok being too overdramatic here…)

ok so my hair was nice and i had to pick SA for dinner at my house coz my mom was cooking. he was being so polite when he was eating and since he and my dad didnt like Manchester United, they both were condemning the club since they lose the game that day… sad to say i was too a ex- Man utd fan.. anyway after dinner, SA and me decided to have some “dessert” before i sent him home…heheheh so that was the end of my sunday in kl

the next day took the bus at 10.30 and reach penang at 2.30pm… despite being so tired.. i just had to do some things… i cleaned my room, did my laundry and finally sat down and my mind start to wonder… hmmm it was a good week indeed… nodding to myself and i was asleep….

3rd week…

welll 3rd week did not start very well, i had flu and cough (dun know from who i got it from…) was blowing my nose so much that until now i have yet to recover the full use of my smelling senses… sob sob.. lose my appetite as well… anyway nothing interesting happened coz i was half asleep (high on medication) in class for the past week. luckily soon it is the weekend.. was looking forward to the weekend to recover and do some me time… apparently the house doctor in dell’s premise is only available on mon and weds at specific time… WHAT KIND OF DOCTOR IS THAT jennifer said… hahahah i can hear myself laughing out loud in my brain if i wasnt that sick… anyway by end of the week, glad to find that i have spread my happiness to the rest of the class… hahahah faizol got it on friday and today i heard that krishnu got it too… hmmm the more the merrier…

anyway since work was done by 3pm on friday went back real early to eat medicine and sleep the day off. on saturday, i was sleeping, cleaning, watched some dvds and eating medication… today went for a game of badminton with khoo, jennifer, faizol, firdaus and couple of khoo’s frens (forgot their names though but i do remember one of them is kindof cute hahahaha…) anyway now sitting here trying to finish writing this bloody long post…ah… wat a relief… oh bummer tomorrow got trainig class… another boring day i guess but i would never know…

till then… adios

the two week of induction at work was quickly set aside and here comes the serious week. unfortunately urs truly had to skip work on monday becoz i torn my ligament on my hand and suffered multiple bruises on my arms and legs. not that i got into a fight or anything like that..
i had my taekwondo competition on sunday and i got beaten like a rag doll.

first of all i was in the wrong category, my Sir put me in the above 70kg category. mind you that i have since my breakup last year i have been shrinking and losing weight.. i am now in mid of 66 -65kg. yeah… still have 10-15 kg more to lose. anyway i have no idea who i was goin to be competiting with and when i saw the girl (from UIA, International Islamic University of Malaysia) i was wondering whether i had just sign my own death certificate. she was damn huge and big. i wonder what they feed her in the uni’s cafe… steriods??? anyhow, the fight was ok considering that i tried to attack her but she managed to block my attack becoz before i could even land a kick to her body, she kicked me…

damn after the first round she was exhausted but i wasnt becoz i have been working on my stamina lately. but then i just could not even kick her to get more points. damn it.. anyway she won and i got a bronze… damn it… well have to let this go and train for the next one in june. this competition was great with lots of action, injuries and blood. two guys got kicked on the head and broke their nose.. bleeding everywhere.. cool never seen so much blood… hahahah

i have not been goin to the gym for a week and i am feeling a little quesy.. must go gym again next week!!! i must lose another 5-6 kg by mid of the year and then lose another 5-6 more by the end of the year… support me people!

well goin back to my work, well this week we were introduced to the products that we would be dealing with and customer service. we were trained by this australian trainer and her name is samantha. she is nice but quite strict and a bit rigid. but by the end of the week, we find her quite tolerable and well for me, i think she is way better than some of the lecturers in my college. on friday, we had the opportunity to sit with a real GSE (global suppport executives) and heard some live call from australia and observe how they deal with the customers. was kindof cool and also interesting.. heard many funny and some horror stories but all in all it was alright.

i got an phone interview from dell on thursday, i was kind of nervous but it went fine. i really hope that i get this job becoz not only it pay better, it is alsolutely something that i am interested in doing and it is far away from home. just an excuse to move out of the house! hahahah

well that is about it.. hey but wait a minute how abt the guy that i mention in my last post? well safe to say we are still goin out, talked a lot of crap on the phone and me trying to pscyho-analyze him and also the other way around. i came to a conclusion that i should not think too much about this “complicated” relationship and just go with what is natural. i do not want to make the same mistakes like what happened in my previous relationship when i got too emotional and just too attached. not goin to that with this guy.. i am goin treat him how i treat my previous bf, caring and being there for the fella but i not goin to be too emotional about my feelings. coz i just dont know what to feel anymore. i like the fella but i dont know how i like him.. u know what i mean?

well anyway i do not wanna put high hopes in any kind of relationship becoz i think i should just enjoy it without stressing about what may or will happen. as the fella say “enjoy the journey eventhough the destination may differ as time passes by”.. i am quoting the fella becoz he is just so good in telling me things and it makes great sense and i actually agree with what he says. hmmm and things he says are just really sensible and damn right funny…

so that is about it for this week.. will write more next week..till then..